Monday, April 26, 2010

Chanel, Busyness, and Other Musings

Since being forced by the threat of a lawsuit into a new name, propelling my modest business forward has been a struggle. Instead of being fun or inspiring, there was an extended period of time where having a business was just oppressive and stifling--the very antithesis of why I own a business.

If you haven't seen the movie, Coco Before Chanel, I recommend it; Chanel's empire was born of wounds and struggle and a tenacious spirit. At one point early in her career, she opened a shop in Paris. She quickly went bankrupt and was forced to surrender her properties. In her online biography it reads: "This did not discourage her; it only made her more determined." In my studio, I have this excerpt highlighted and tacked to my inspiration board. While I don't liken my humble company to Chanel's lofty iconic status, I think we can look to those who found success and apply that wisdom tempered with faith to our own lives. As my father has often said, "If I see further, it is because I have stood on the shoulders of giants."

In the wake of the name change, I have been busy: painfully so. I'm not one to complain about a cold, but it has left me achy and in a mental fog at the least desirable time to feel so. I find myself slipping further and further behind. Sometimes I wake to a start in the middle of the night, suddenly recalling an email that is still unanswered. I want both: to be a good mother to my children and have a business. Some days it feels like an impossibility.

But the good news is the debut of the new name is only days away, and when that happens, everything will change: the blog, the website {at long last!}, the logo. There will be giveaways and other fun things. I am using this as an opportunity to re-brand and get one step closer to finding my business identity. I have realized that my likes are a wild smattering, bouncing from one whim to another. Eventually, I will land somewhere that feels really "me." Did you know Chanel was first known for straw hats? I feel like even though my business derived from booties for Mia, I sometimes feel God speaking that this is not where I will land. Who really knows, though, or can understand the mystery of how God speaks to our heart. "When we understand the outside of things, we think we have them. Yet the Lord puts His things in sub-defined, suggestive shapes, yielding no satisfactory meaning to the mere intellect, but unfolding themselves to the conscience and heart." -- George MacDonald

So, in summary: I am busy and behind; the new name is coming; and I recommend the movie Coco Before Chanel. Wishing you a happy Monday and the joys of a fresh new week.


Prencie said...

I haven't seen Coco before Channel but I did get to see the TV version of Coco Channel that aired last year some time. I guess for some reason I thought that they were the same.

I will be keeping you and your family in my prayers. I can't imagine what it feels like to be in your shoes right now but it sounds like your baring it beautifully.

Prencie said...

Oh good! I'm glad that you feel excited about the change:) I've been worried about you and this lawsuit! Just know that you have inspired and touched so many woman with your words, design and beautiful pictures!! Me being one of them! I know that you won't disappoint:)

Mande said...

You have been on my mind & in my prayers Jessica.
The movie looks inspirational.
You are inspirational.


Alisha said...

You are in my prayers daily.

Thank you for sharing this great quote..."This did not discourage her; it only made her more determined."

Thank for for always being so inspiring. I am so excited to see all the new changes :)

Kjerstine said...

It is an incredible movie. I loved it. Fell in love with it. You will pull through and thank you for your up beat words and inspiration, just like many of the comment here, you do inspire many of us and uplift us, when you dont even know it.
thank you, thank you so much.

Dear Lillie said...

I have been keeping you in my prayers! Am so so so excited about the debut of your website and everything else that is going along with it!

Amy said...

That movie is AWESOME and I so agree...was so inspirational. The September Issue had the same impact on me as well. If you saw it you saw how, I believe it was the designer for Valentino, suffled around in a cloud of stress over his made me realize even the famous and those who have "attained" still feel growing pains.

hang in there. praying for you!! I am also excited to see your new site. :)

Anonymous said...

Press on, Jessica, you are full of resilience and courage. I am so proud of you! You have so much of your mother's heart, she quoted to me often "All noble things are as difficult as they are rare". Jessica, remember that you will always be given all the time, energy, patience, faith, hope and love you will neeed to do His will. And the greatest is love. I also want you to know that I have seen much more love and joy in your family over the last few weeks, I am thankful to the Lord for this great blessing. So press on, my treasure, and rest in the Lord. "No good thing will He with hold from them that walk uprightly" Psalms 84:11

Lisa said...

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD. Isaiah 55:8

All we can do is trust and obey. It seems that's exactly what you are doing, so be encouraged!


LaDawn D said...

You are right to believe in the many opportunities the name change, and rebranding will bring to your company! All of your loyal followers are here no matter what the logo inside our babie's booties says!!! It has been ages since I have had the chance to post; but I have been reading and keeping up and as always I am so happy for you and so inspired by your amazing strength.

Melinda Ann Photography said...

Well said, as always. :-D

"I want both: to be a good mother to my children and have a business. Some days it feels like an impossibility."

amen. :-D Sending good thoughts and well wishes your way! I can't wait to hear the new name!
Take care

Ariana said...

I am so excited for you! I agree with Anon, HIS WILL be done. Have a great week!

Brandie said...

What a great post! I have been struggling lately wanting to continue my business and make it a success and the consuming need to do something totally different at the same time. I have been longing to dive more into photography, to learn, to grow and to one day use it as a medium to express myself and make memories for others but I LOVE my clothing line too and have had so much trouble tryng to pick one. I just can't seem to do it but I feel like I should. I wanted to stay home with my kids to be present intheir lives and I haven't figured out the best way to do that with one company let alone too.

Anywhoo, sorry for rambling, you just got me thinking again:)

Terri Bowden said...

That was an amazing movie! My mom and I watched it together. Hope your shopping trip was pleasant today without the little ones...that always makes it go so much smoother. I dread bringing mine into any sort of craft/fabric store. A disaster is inevitable when I do. So happy for you with the launch of the website and new name so close! I'm sure it will be such a relief. Congratulations on it all, talk to you soon.

Jenni said...

I am excited for what the future brings to you and the new name! I can't wait actually!!!

Audrey said...

Maggie's hair clips arrived today. They are beautiful! And thank you very much for the headband. Hope all is well, Audrey

Anonymous said...

When my oldest boy was just a baby, I unknowingly started a business. All of the sudden I woke up and had a store front in our downtown district that allowed customers to design their own handbags. It grew and grew and soon, my company was among some of the biggest in the same specialty. Ex. I had sales reps, online orders, walk in orders, you name it. Then my business partner decided she could no longer run a business and take care of her 4 newly adopted babies. Can you blame her? I kept at it for a few more years before I felt God completely close the door and I'm glad He did (now). When I first decided to sell or close it was devastating. I had worked SO hard. It'll be okay. I only recently found your blog through P.Prass and I was in awe! You have something SUPER special so I know that you'll succeed. Best of luck.

Jessica Haley said...

Oh, I missed these comments! Thank you so much for your affirmation/empathy. Anon, wow--you built such a successful company! I'd be lying if I told you I never wondered if this is the right path b/c a business is so time-consuming and so hard... and takes away from my children. For now, I feel {oddly enough} likes it's my calling, though I am certain it won't always be.


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